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5-13-15

Rest day, wore my silicone sleeve at work today, about 8 hours worth.

Balls are a little tender today, but my dick feels fine. I'll see how I feel tomorrow if a routine is possible.

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5-14-15

-About 10 minutes in the bathmate getting ready for work today
-Wore my 2 inch cockring behind the balls for a couple hours after to keep it a little plumper

Did a little edging and JAI stretches periodically at work in the bathroom. Flaccid seemed a little meatier today, could be my imagination since the pumping swell goes away pretty fast for me usually.

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5-15-15

Morning routine

-12 minutes bathmate
-7 minutes jelqing
-10 minutes edging
-Wore cockring post-routine until about 2pm (~6 hours)

Dick feels ok, I'm super horny since I haven't masturbated since Wednesday (today is Friday). Seems a little more plump but not really measurably. Definitely more responsive to imagination and simulation too. I just wanna play with it all day!

Porn free since 5-9-15

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5-16-15

EVENING ROUTINE

-10 minutes bathmate
-handful of jelqs after

Didn't have much time for a routine, but I did have a lot of sex this morning (like 2 hours worth spread out over a few rounds) so I had already gotten some work in. Dick feels good, nice and chubby. Not by a huge amount but a little bit.

It was weird though, I couldn't get off this morning. Like I had no problems getting or staying hard but I couldn't come to save my life. Like my abs are sore I banged so much. I was able to get her off quite a few times but I only came last night, not the morning after. Death grip masturbating isn't helpful. It's hard when you have to try and explain that to her, since they still think it's because of them and it's not.

Porn free since 5-9-15

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5-17-15

Sunday

-10 minutes bathmate
-8 minutes slow wet jelqs
-10 minutes edging

Feeling a couple off days coming up. My unit feels a little tired. He's had a busy weekend.

Had a little porn relapse, but it wasn't a video. Scrolled through a Tumblr for a minute. Ugh.

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5-18-15

Rest day. Randomly stretched it and fluffed it a little in the bathroom a few times at work. Taking tomorrow off too.

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5-19-15

Rest day. Unit is still pretty tired. Woke up in the middle of the night last night and couldn't sleep. Tried jerking off to get relaxed but it didn't work. Anxiety has been a little high lately for some reason. :-/

Worked up a couple quick boners just to feel it out and keep it fluffed, but it was a little "worked" feeling, if that makes any sense. Flaccid hang is great though! It's like a half inch longer than normal the past couple days

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5-20-15

Before bed

-Directional stretches with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles (straight, left, right)
-15 minutes very slow jelqs (like 5-8 seconds per hand)
--45 minutes edging, ejaculated

Switching to overhand grip from underhand for jelqs. Feels better for whatever reason. The pressure of my fingertips at the base was causing weird sensations underhand, plus it feels more effective overhand. For whatever reason couldn't get the feel right until now.

Still taking L-citrulline and the 5 Gs, at the very least blood flow is hopefully improved a little. Also taking maca and creatine every day.

Flaccid was decent today, not my biggest but I'm usually surprised with a little extra when I pull it out whenever I take a leak.

Might take a rest day tomorrow night, but we'll see how it feels. Maybe just a light jelqing session.

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5-21-15

10 minutes bathmate session this morning before worK, wore my 2" cockring behind my balls till mid afternoon. Edged a little after I got home from work.

Dick is hanging long and strong. Company coming over tomorrow for a little slap and pickle

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5-23-15

Had LOTS of sex last night and this morning so I already got some work today, but I still did a routine this afternoon since I'll be at my parents' for the holiday weekend and will have a good excuse for a couple good rest days.

-15 minutes bathmate
-10 minutes jelqing
-I masturbated because I was still horny after banging, not ideal but I needed it

I can definitely tell my dick has had some work. It's got that achy, worked feeling and needs to not get hard for a little while. Other than that libido is good, even after banging for a couple hours in total over like 12 hours then doing PE. ED wasn't really an issue, but I am having some delayed ejacualtion problems I'll keep an eye on. Less jerking off for sure.

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5-26-15

-15 minutes very slow jelqs
-30 minutes edging, ejaculated

Rest days were a good idea, came back strong tonight. Will do a routine tomorrow and hold my load for a few more days at least. Depends on my weekend plans.

Flaccid seems to be hanging a little longer lately, more often than not. Even when I go to the gym it just gets skinnier, but not super short. Girth hasn't budged in a while.

I wish I could use my bathmate more, but it makes my nuts hurt for some reason. Aggravating. Might start squeezing and light clamping this month. It's weird cause I don't get the temporary gains from the jelqs that others seem to, I don't know if I'm doing them right/enough... Vets please chime in.

On a positive note, it has been more reliable and a little stronger (I think?) than it was 6 months ago. Just gotta keep pushing.

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5-28-15

-Stretches with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles (straight, left, right)
-20 minutes jelqing/edging/playing with my half flaccid thing. Rough routine...

Had a hell of a time keeping it hard tonight. Was a constant battle of playing with it and stroking it in all kinds of ways, using more coconut oil, and trying to get into it. Makes for a rough routine.

Could be the porn if been looking at lately. It's weird, whenever I start back up its usually after I've spent a little time off and sort of "gotten away" with sneaking it once or twice and justifying it, like it won't do anything THIS time. Then I get to the point where I can barely get my dick hard without it. I recognized that cycle tonight though, so that's probably one or the more useful parts if my routine tonight. I feel like the jelqs were pretty useless, but I still did em.

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5-29-15

Morning routine before work

-15 minutes bathmate
-2 x 60 sec horse squeezes
-3 x 30 sec Ulis

Tried some new exercises today. I'm going to work towards a more girth focused routine. I've been at this for about 6 months now with reasonable consistency. I feel conditioned enough to sprinkle on some Ulis and squeezes as I make my way up to a light clamping routine in a few months.

My girth hasn't really budged with jelqing, but I'm still going to continue using them for general health, plus they feel good

Hopefully the combination of pumping and girth focused manual work will get things moving a bit.

Most likely taking a rest day tomorrow since I added some new stimuli today.

Happy tugging boys.

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6-1-15

Morning routine

-12 minutes bathmate
-3 x 30 sec Ulis
-3 x 30 sec horse squeezes

Had a tiny bit of trouble keeping it up to full tilt hardness for the girth exercises but managed to squeeze through it. Dick feels ok, think I'm in the sweet spot for frequency and workload at the moment. 2 on 1 off feels nice.

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6-2-15

Morning routine

-12 minutes bathmate
-5 minutes jelqing
-all day cockring

Didn't have a ton of time to get a routine in but did manage to pump for a little while. As I was increasing suction it felt like it wasn't expanding as easily for some reason, like the tissues were almost stiffer in a way. 6-3-15 will be a rest day, but I will wear my cockring all day just because.

Cut back the porn lately too. It seems to be helping. I can get it up a little easier now, but my EQ isn't a perfect 10 all the time.

Being a hard gainer is rough. I have moments where I doubt if I'll gain at all, since I've been doing this for months and feel like I "should" be gaining more quickly. I'm putting off sleeping with a girl I just met because I'm worried about my girth and sporadic ED, which I know is bullshit but still crosses my mind. Like I could have brought her home last Saturday, but I didn't on purpose.

Reading stories of guys getting fatter by the month makes me happy for them, don't get me wrong, but makes me that much more desperate. I'm not going to let it affect my actions, but I just want it to get going already!